I don't have a chance.

He's much older than me, but that never crosses (my) mind.

It seems as though he is kind to me for reasons I don't care for.

I don't want his pity... but I guess because it's present I should accept his?

I don't know much about history or politics... but I know that love is important.

I think about him all the time. I worry about him. I love the way he smells. He looks so handsome in glasses.
I love the tone of his genuine laughter. I love listening to him talk about things he's most interested in, even though I have no idea what he's talking about most of the time... I just really enjoy witnessing his passion. I hate it when he says his life sucks, because he has so much to be thankful for, and I am really thankful for having him in my life, even if just barely. Every man I ever dated cheated on me, so I think that he is... but we aren't "together" so what's the point in giving a fuck about my own feelings, right?

Because I love this man I really don't have a chance, do I ?

... so there's this guy...

To be honest with myself, I have been "fuckin'" him for ten months now. I wish that I could say that I have been dating him all that time, but he wouldn't agree... and if that actually was the case, I would not be writing this, now... would I?

I don't even know where to begin when it comes to this one.

I dated a man for eight years and and thought it was love THEN. With THAT ONE.

But it was only a routine I was smitten with.

With this one, I hate the routine we have.

It's HIM that I love... and I HATE that he hates that.

I'm human and I am not sorry... sorry!

I have dated many a douchebag, but you cut the cake.

I would do, practically anything for you.

Right now, I don't have much to offer except my loyalty.

...isn't that supposed to be the best part?

I am sick of you pretending that YOU are SICK.

STOP!

LIVE.

... you really really DO have your whole life ahead of you...

why be incomplete?

I'm sorry. You're human, and so am I .

I digress.